Bittersweet

I can't get enough of Adele's 'Someone Like You'. Especially...

"Nothing compares, no worries or cares
Regrets and mistakes, they're memories made
Who would have known how bittersweet this would taste?"

Ooooohhhh, that last line. Whew.

It's funny how your memory works. (Like, you know your mama whooped you as a child, but you can't remember the pain.) Memories of men gone by are vague. Maybe it's because of that or maybe it's because I was one of the lucky ones and never experienced it in the first place - either way, I have no memory of something as bittersweet as this very moment.

He came into my life for an extremely clear (to me) reason; for that I'll forever be grateful. While I tip my hat to my creator for packaging my saving grace from the most horrible dating situation of my life in such a yummy and mentally-stimulating way...it still tastes so unbelievably bittersweet.

Why couldn’t he at least stay for a season? (If I had it my way, he would stay for a lifetime).

Okay, I get the fact that his purpose was to show me that there are still wonderful men out there and I didn’t have to settle for what the previous one was offering. Knowing that is sweet, so sweet.

But the bitter comes in because of just how wonderful he is. He’s what dreams are made of. Oh why can’t my dreams become a reality?

Hmmm, maybe there's hope for that after all. Adele continues...

"Nevermind I'll find someone like you..."

And I will; no doubt about it.

Perhaps this doesn't taste bittersweet at all. Maybe it's neutral; a palate-cleanser, like pickled ginger on a plate of sushi. I guess I have no choice but to sit back and wait for the next course.