My grandma passed away yesterday morning. She was 91 years young and lived a full life. Earlier this week I learned she had taken a turn for the worse. I broke down numerous times and grieved for her before she had even passed. But after learning of her death, I immediately felt peace surround me. I know it's cliche, but I know my grandma is in a better place. She's with her 4 children that went before her, she's able to walk even faster than me and see even better than you. She's home, wherever that may be.
While part of me truly believed she was in a better place, another wanted confirmation. I wanted a sign that she had made it to her final destination. I actually prayed that she would come to me in my sleep, brushing my locks from my face and whispering in my ear, "I'm okay." I slept for 12 hours last night and 1 more this afternoon; I wanted to give her a large window of time to come to me.
But she had other plans.
Over two weeks ago, I met a new guy. He and I have emailed a few times and talked on the phone twice. We had already planned to meet today. But after my grandma passed I had to decide whether or not to keep those plans. After much thought, I decided to go along with it. Yes my grandma, my heart, is gone; but I still have to live. So he and I are enjoying dinner and out of the blue he tells me that his birthday was...yesterday! I've never believed in coincidences; as the saying goes, everything happens for a reason. I know that my grandma was sending me a sign. My date's birthday being the date of my grandma's death was my confirmation of her delivery to heaven.
Just as peace enveloped me at the time of her passing, may she forever rest in it.
While part of me truly believed she was in a better place, another wanted confirmation. I wanted a sign that she had made it to her final destination. I actually prayed that she would come to me in my sleep, brushing my locks from my face and whispering in my ear, "I'm okay." I slept for 12 hours last night and 1 more this afternoon; I wanted to give her a large window of time to come to me.
But she had other plans.
Over two weeks ago, I met a new guy. He and I have emailed a few times and talked on the phone twice. We had already planned to meet today. But after my grandma passed I had to decide whether or not to keep those plans. After much thought, I decided to go along with it. Yes my grandma, my heart, is gone; but I still have to live. So he and I are enjoying dinner and out of the blue he tells me that his birthday was...yesterday! I've never believed in coincidences; as the saying goes, everything happens for a reason. I know that my grandma was sending me a sign. My date's birthday being the date of my grandma's death was my confirmation of her delivery to heaven.
Just as peace enveloped me at the time of her passing, may she forever rest in it.
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